Under Reno

Hi lovelies (I seriously do not know who I am addressing in these blog spots, seeing as half of the things I write are for my own sanity) but despite the chance of looking like a sick case of Mona from Pretty Little Liars (refer to split personality disorder) I guess it was about time I started blogging again.

I can't express how unhappy or stressed I've felt over the past few months. With my last year of university looming right over the corner and the prospect of becoming an elementary school teacher within my grasp, I cannot help but contemplate where the choices in my life are taking me and in what direction my life is spiralling into. There is no doubt in my mind that I will be successful, that I will make something of myself one day. But seeing as how things are going, I just don't think the choices or thereby, the lack of choices, I've been making have been in any way shape or form beneficial to the ideal life I wish to create. And that is why I've decided to go "under reno."

I don't ever think someone can change over night, but one can learn to start making changes despite the constant whirlwinds and friggin tornadoes life seems to offer. "So we beat on, boats against the current..."   yes, so you get my drift (see what I did there?). Anyways, one thing that has become more and more apparent day by day is:

• If you are working for money, you are working for the wrong reason. 

I know that seems kind of biased, but it's what I believe. Today I finally gave in my 2 week resignation after my manager pretty much scolded me for not selling enough credit cards to our customers. Plain fact is, I just hate retail. And there is absolutely no reason for me to working it either. I do not want want to be a sales associate when I grow up. I don't want to be a buyer, manager or fashion designer. And while I have acquired a lot of amazing skills in my 5 years working clothing retail, there is no opportunity for me to move into teaching. The only reason I stay, and frankly keep returning to retail, is for the money, to pay for my excessive eating and shopping habits. And so, in spite of the fact that my parents are calling me a quitter I'd like to think of this change as something as I have been wanting  needing to do for a while. I need to find opportunities that will allow me to grow, not stump me. And this just was not it. Was it difficult writing that 2 week notice? Sure. But what's more difficult is staying at a job where I was not happy, and where I couldn't see myself in the near future. I'm still young so...can I still quote "YOLO"? Well I just did.

Till next post, find what makes you happy. And if that happiness only comes in a type currency, maybe it's time for some recalculation.

PS. GIRL PUT IN WORK, GIRL PUT IN WORK (for the right reasons may I add!)

BIG NEWS

So I finally got off my lazy arse and got me a new job (refer to post below)! Yes, I have moved from the life of retail...well back to the life of retail! Funny enough though, I'm okay with it. I'll now be working as a seasonal sales associate at a store I actually enjoy shopping at and hopefully working in. And that store is...Anthropologie! I'm so excited to be starting my new job (not only are the benefits/discounts awesome..but one of my close friends works there which means more "us" time..yay!) and I'm actually proud of myself for making a conscious effort to make myself more happy. Anyways, till next time, here are also just a few more "outfits of the days" I've pieced together during my lazy summer days...enjoy! xo

I Sound Sadder Than I Actually Am

The course of retail never did run smooth...said no one ever. But as I fold the never ending array of Calvin Klein seamless thongs and other lace contraptions that make me cringe as a young adult woman, I can't help but wonder where my life is going at this job. Obviously, this isn't my life career (having said that big brownie points to me for surviving my 4th year in university!), but even for the time being, why am I spending time at an occupation in which I have no joy or interest in doing? If life is indeed this "short" as people proclaim, shouldn't I be indulging myself in something that will provide me with happiness, even if that something is a part-time job to pay for my shopping habits? Regardless, I can't say I'm sad, because well life is too beautiful to have such an outlook! But I do admit, I hope I can find something a little more substantial and perhaps even connected to my future career of teaching young children. Anyways, I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend and doing something that they love! Till next time, I must now go get ready to unpack more CK underwear out of countless brown boxes xo

Just a little something something that has been glued to my ears since...well yesterday :D

Safe Haven

This is how I imagine life very soon, very soon...I am going somewhere in this life.

Not So April Fool's

Happy April first ladies and gents! I love the start of the month because I feel like it gives me a reason to start something new and fresh! For this month my goal is to jump back on the wagon of good old working out and eating clean. I have to admit, the first month was awesome, but after living the life of a student teacher (which goes a little something like this: wake up at 6:30, shower, prep for lessons, teach lessons for the entire day, chase after children in the hallway, break up 'boys just being boys', yard duty, volunteer, home, plan lessons for tomorrow, eat, sleep) well yeah, I just have no time! Throw a few shifts of work in, and I am a complete wreck once Saturday comes. However, since I only have 2 more weeks of student teaching left, I thought I could squeeze in a small workout today and a few this week! My day pretty much started with some simple carbs- flax bread and peanut butter but once lunch came around I opted for a fish fillet! Next, after some lesson planning of course, I decided to give my body a 40 minute workout. Actually...I am sitting on this computer as we speak with my arms aching (yeah working out does that to ya). So before I hit the shower, here are just a few exercises I did today. Honestly I am not ready to go to my university's gym juuuuust yet, so I'm opting for the less embarrassing option of watching youtube workout videos at home. Do you have any good workout gurus/videos you watch? Let me know, xo

She's honestly so awesome and funny, and if you have time, I'd definitely subscribe to her (: Later gators!